YThursday, February 02, 2006
Metamorphosis- A transformation, as by magic or sorcery
That process could be me..morphing into someone so real yet so unsure. Im not lost in myself..im just sort of confused. tho i know that this is what i want..i am kinda clueless at times of the things that im going thru..the people around me and the passers-by comin in and out of my life.
what's up wit me..?
i am not really aware of my purpose in mourning and yearning of contentment and im not really aware of the reason to why i am always feelin so blue. neither am i aware of the dissapearance of the girl i once knew..
the down-to-earth hypractive, loco loony girl who always brightens up the day of the people around her..what happened.??
i am really not sure..but im out to get her back.
cuz if i cant make myself happy..who can? haha =D
so people do come in and out of ur life and some just vanish into thin air..
some leave a scar that hurt or a footprint that alters you..
whatever the markings could be, their presence have a purpose..all of them. everyone that u come across or get to know have a reason to be there..
they enlighten u into things that ur not aware of..
for instance, if a guy walks in and out of ur life..talkin to u only if he feels like talkin. knowin that u fancy him..n ur dumb vulnerable self get eluded by his jerkiness
only to then realise that he's makin use of u..enjoyin the ride and thus, regret engulfed u..u keep sayin
"shouldn't have done tis" or tat..
then..woopz.too late!
u swear urself off of guys only to find urself talkin to another guy and yada yada..but with each experiences wit every guy u become more aware..more cautious..stronger..no matter how slow the process or how many times u keep makin the same mistake over and over again..
each guy that used u actually wakes u up. teaches u how to not be vulnerable..how to be strong..how not having a lover doesnt necessarily spell spinster.HAHA.
we should take a look at things that way..that every hurt caused by everyone ard u teaches or shows u somethg..these are some of the lessons in life tat most humans fail to consider to rectify.including me.
well people..i learnt that miracles DO happen..
if u just let go off that "other" in ur life, in ur heart..who keeps pulling u back to square one..that "other" who always tells u that u'll be 'safer' tis way..who pollute ur mind that whatever ur thinking is gona hurt u. that ur plans are just bound to tumble..that "other" in you who keeps u cautious and afraid of takin the chance..
dun let him take control of you..ur in control of urself. tell that "other" in you that u're in charge. let him go..let him stay at that corner.he's done enough damage.
what's life without hurt, problems and sufferings..?
what's love without the series of heartbreaks?
what's a statement without a meaning?
what's you without taking control of yourself?
we are all growin..older not younger. dun wori abt the what ifs..just dive in and swim..and explore the deep blue sea..there may be sharks and jellyfish..but there are also coral reefs and pearls..it's the matter of how keen and how much faith u have in urself and how strong u are.
you are strong.
everything in life has two meanings..two outcomes and two sides. thus, defining the fact that the Lord really created such a thing that everything comes in pairs.. the sun accompanied by the moon..the female and the male..happiness and sadness..a yes and a no..to be loved or heartbroken..
to learn..or to be dumb.
consider this..and im sure u'll be an optimists and things will sail..
living life will be a breeze and u'll be the one person that people look up to
(not like it matters..hehe).
p/s: im sorry sis..I LOVE YOU. ur still my one and only and kak sha..ur not a burden..ur a gift. thanks fer loving me.
loved and embracing the beauty of this life..my life.
Lord bless.
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